We’ve had quite the conversation over the past few months. I have to admit that I’ve had a lot of fun with this email stuff. In trying to instill a little knowledge on you, I’ve also learned a bit on my own.
You see, I like to think that I’m (Damn near) perfect, but I know in my heart of hearts that I’m very far from it. I’ve struggled with hate, greed, jealousy, anger, injuries, unhealthy eating, and even addictions. And honestly, that’s just within the past year.
The biggest lie I was telling myself was that I was ok. I would tell myself, let me just get through this with a smile and nobody would know any better. I would pretty much seclude myself to my home after work and just do nothing, convinced that I did enough for the day by helping other people improve their lives.
The funny thing is that the more clients I took on and the more money I made, I would just feel worse, because I would use my work as my escape from reality and never really made time to help the most important person in my life.
You see chico, I never really made the attempt to go inside and make my life better, because I was convinced that what other people thought of me as a fitness professional was much more important than what I thought of myself.
Outwardly, I oozed confidence while inside I was more depressed than I had ever been because I was literally killing myself with all the bad habits I had picked up to mask the pain I was feeling inside.
Now why am I telling you all this?
Is it because I want you to feel sorry for me?
In short care bear, that’s a NO.
On the contrary. I want you to see a little of my struggle in your own life, because if not you, someone you know may be dealing with the exact same issues.
No don’t go starting a telethon for me. I don’t need that. I don’t even need your understanding, but what I do need is for you to pay attention for a little bit while I clue you in to how I’ve accepted that I’m a work in progress and started to focus on my own self confidence.
What I found was that it was not as easy as putting on that outward appearance I had been settling for all along.
You see chachi, it’s just like fitness. You can cheat all you want by taking diet pills, meal replacements, or simply not eating, but the unfortunate thing is that once you stop, it becomes very hard to maintain your weight.
There’s really no way around it. You have to put the work in if you want real results. It’s only then you’ll see real benefits and you’ll build confidence.
So if you’re looking for real results, stop looking for superficial answers and get with a real program.
The General Fitness Program is a program that builds you up from the inside out. Working on things like your motivations, goals, and answers the question “why” you got to where you are in the first place.
So if you identify with what I was talking about earlier, well then you my friend should join me in a journey of self discovery
Jerry “Truthiness” Washington