Chuuuuch! (I’m scared )

So I was talking to my mom the other day as I sometimes do when I want to be told that I need to shave my beard

Normally by mid conversion I get the usual “why don’t you own a house yet,” shpeel
But this time she was on something way different

She said why don’t you go to church?

I said well my church is when I read books like the bible and listen to ministers on tv.

She says to me in that motherly tone,

That’s not enough

You see what you may not know about me is that I grew up in a…

Church…Like, I mean not going Trick or Treating because it was the devil’s holiday,
Knowing the books of the bible in chronological order,
Grandma praying with me everywhere we went…
Grew up in a church

So in this industry and in this time it is hard for me to sometimes identify with the complexities of it all so I bail when it comes to anything religious nowadays and hope my education and good works will get me into heaven…if there is one.

Son, she said to me,
It’s not only about learning more
But it’s being consistent with your studies as well as fellowshipping.

Damn

Mom was right.
It’s exactly what I’ve been telling my program members for years not to mention, you the reader for almost 2 months now.

You’ve got to be consistent and you’ve got to do it with people that will keep you accountable.

Ah shucks, I hate it when mom is right!

So what do I do?

Well here it is about 2:30PM on
Saturday and you know what?

I didn’t go 🙁

You know why?
Well Joseph, let me hold your amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat for a brief moment while I relate this to you

*shakes it out* Frankly, I pussed out
(Here’s your coat back)
I was just too scared of what people would think of me.
They would judge all that I did
All that I said
All the time I had been away
I just couldn’t
Not today

Wow, sounds a lot like when YOU haven’t been to the gym in awhile right?

Damn

Dood, I feel ya. I’m like 120% percent there
What’s worse?
I feel worse that I didn’t go and I’m already having anxiety about whether I should go next Sunday.

It’s like anything broseph
We get all upset and worried that people are gonna notice our insecurities when in all actuality…
Everyone is too concerned about their own shit to even think about yours

No one is perfect and, I more than anyone, now understand that fact 100%
I just ask that you don’t make the same decision as I did today                                                       To choose to side with your fear over doing what’s good for you.

I almost don’t even feel right putting this link here because of how I feel about not going to church today, but if you want to join a group that really understands and respects those that want to make a difference in their lives,
And you’re a little braver than me today and are willing to take the next step to leaving fear and replacing it with fit. I urge you my brother to come forward to the alter

Click here: Private Facebook group: Project SELFFY
Jerry “WWJD” Washington

P.S. I found someone to fix my computer.(Thanks for asking) Gonna be an easy fix. Kudos to the staff at Best Buy for pointing me in the right direction. Hopefully we’ll see us back to normal by the end of the week.